My PMDD Story
After my youngest was born I started having intense mood swings, insane fatigue and the worst brain fog — I honestly felt like a terrible mum. Anxiety came back hard and I found myself doubting every decision. At first I blamed sleepless nights and the chaos of two little kids, but then I noticed a pattern: I wasn’t always like this. It felt as if a switch flipped — the pain and sadness would arrive out of nowhere, then disappear just as suddenly.
Some days I’d wake up feeling fine, and by afternoon I’d be in tears over nothing. My heart would race, my body felt heavy, my brain fog so thick I’d forget what I was saying mid-sentence. I’d get intense bloating, insomnia, and a kind of irritability that didn’t feel like me at all. It wasn’t just emotional — it was physical, hormonal, and completely unpredictable.
I’d always heard of PMS, but this felt so much worse. Strangely, getting my period often relieved the symptoms instead of causing them — which confused me even more. When I finally spoke to my doctor she suggested PMDD. I’d never heard of it, but the more I read, the clearer it became: I ticked pretty much every box.
My next question was: how do I fix this? The quick answer I heard was basically “antidepressants or hormonal birth control.” I’d tried both before and they weren’t for me. So I threw everything else at it — vitamins and herbs, meditation, journalling, walking, strength training, breathwork, affirmations, manifesting, working with the moon and nature, grounding… you name it, I’ve probably tried it or read about it.
What hit me hardest was how alone I felt. I had nobody to talk to about this — and neither did my partner. That’s when we built an app - an app that I wish I’d had when all this started: a place with the tools, support and community I needed. I’m still growing it, but my goal is simple — to make a warm, wholesome space that actually helps.
PMDD isn’t something that disappears overnight — it’s something I’m still learning to live with and manage. This blog is where I’ll share my story, what’s helped me, and what I’m still learning.
If you’re living this too, come along. Let’s connect, raise awareness, and remind each other that even in the worst of hell week(s), we’re not alone.
If you think you might be experiencing PMDD, please reach out to your GP or a women’s health specialist. You don’t have to go through it alone.